Just leave me alone... for tonight

You've only seen what I allow you to see.

Filtered and remains the good side of me.

I've always been a vessel of hope.

But a part of me wishes to break free.

The part I don't want anyone to see.

I am not complaining.

In fact I never once complained.

I know I am loved. I know I am lucky.

It's just, sometimes, I get really really sad.

Stop this sadness, she said.

But right now can I just cower in darkness?

Tonight, let me be weak.

Let me lose hope.

Let me break down.

It won't take an hour, I promise.

Just leave me alone... for tonight.