I've always wanted to deactivate Twitter (By Twitter, I also mean Instagram and Facebook), in fact, I've wanted to completely turn away from the social media for quite some time now. I just needed the right push.
Well, I harnessed it.
By now you've probably noticed it. I did delete three accounts all at once. And if you're not updated, let me then update you. The following are no longer available for stalking:
Twitter:
@renealizette
Instagram:
@renealizette and @lilahgran
Now that we've established the facts, let me elaborate.
Why did I delete my Twitter (and Instagram)?
Because it's consuming me.
It's the obsession electrified on the tips of my fingers. I was hungry. And the noise of the netizens satisfied this "hunger" well.
It stole the beauty of things, and I know you do not understand this right now. Again, let me elaborate further... in practicality.
I enjoy some time alone. That one day you don't go out so you can have some space. But as part of daily routine, you check Twitter or Instagram or Facebook, and see all these pictures, selflies, iPhone photography, updates, check-ins. And suddenly, I was hungry again. I was hungry for the same. And I've realized I only dine out to take some good food porn shots. I realized I even buy shit just to brag about them in pictures (though unconsciously done). I realized I only go out so I can check-in. I realized I force myself out of the house, out of the comfort of my bed, to hang out with people I don't like so I can be tagged. I realized I only attend events just so people know my active life.
And then you tend to enjoy the likes more than the food you bought like Gold. You tend to enjoy the comments instead of the item you bought for skipping meals. Or film the entire freaking concert, so you end up watching the entire thing on your screen rather than enjoy the sight all on its own.
It became too much of a blur. I craved the little thing they call "attention". And I never liked those. Everything became so fake, so orchestrated. It corrupted the beauty of nature.
And so I found a solution.
It took some time. But after a couple weeks of withdrawal, I managed to enjoy the separation. I feel free, out of the binds of the social media.
Out of reach sometimes, but still.
I'm out in the open. I'm out. I'm out in the real world. And it feels so good. It feels so majestic. I feel in control. I feel the self-confidence I've lost while I hide in the power of the Internet.
Well, technically I still have Twitter and Instagram, but those are for my brain - for Lilah Gran. You know her. You know her thoughts. In fact, you're reading it.
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