My only remedy is ignorance.

I'm so confused I don't know what to feel anymore.

To me, with all the things going on, my only remedy is ignorance.

I ignore.

Everything.

All of it.

From the very beginning.

I forget.

Everything.

All of it.

From the very beginning.

I'm good with conditioning my mind.

It's easy for me to be ignorant.

It's easy for me to forget.

It's easy for me to look the other way.

But darn it! 

This is just ridiculous.

I feel so confused, 

I don't know what to feel. 

I don't know what to do.

I don't know what to believe,

I don't know how to live.

It's funny the more I control it, the more it slips away.

The more I hang on, the more I lose my grip.

What the hell is going on?!

My mind...

It's killing me.

Like a disease.

I can't get rid of it.

Because it's inside me.

Tearing me apart.