When I started working, I also started to see that the world isn't as big as I thought. It was less intimidating than I once imagined. The places I thought were far, weren't after all. The people I thought weren't my level, weren't after all. I began taking small steps and later on, I suppose I managed to take bigger ones. Things I thought I'd never do, now I've had. Being alone was such a scary thought, now being alone isn't so much anymore. Staying up late scared the shit out of me, but now I rejoice under the moonlight. Night time became my companion on temporary happiness. And such joy gave my heart so much more than day time could ever give.
As I walk along life, I realized certain things don't scare me anymore.
As I laugh along life, I realized certain things don't intimidate me anymore.
When I decided not to care, I felt free.
When I decided not to expect, I felt independence.
When I decided not to worry, I felt joy.
But I know,
If there's one thing I know,
Things always change.
I know eventually, I had to leave this lifestyle.
I don't want it to end, but it encourages me to let go.
I'd rather walk away than be left behind.
Perhaps that is why I have set my retirement quite too soon.
About a year ago, I must have told you,
That I will enjoy life like we should,
Without worries,
Without expectations,
Without commitments.
I will go to that mother fucking concert.
I will text him first.
I will eat that mother fucking burger.
I will watch a series with my heart's content.
I will stay up.
I will splurge.
I will shop.
I will buy.
I will drink to my heart's content.
I will do all that,
And I did.
I am five months away from my deadline.
I will have the grandest birthday.
One I will never forget.
And one you will never forget.
I will leave that mark.
And you and I will remember.
That once upon a time.
031417,
You're invited to my birthday.
And it will be my farewell.
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