Likewise

It's been a while since I've talked about boys so here's un update: what the hell was I thinking?

There were times in the last few months that I found myself longing for somebody's company. I thought maybe it was my cry for a relationship. 

But uhm no

So I was talking to this guy right, and all seemed right at first. After all, he was cute. He had a stable job and lives in the city. He was much older than me so I expected his maturity to overlap mine. But it was quite the opposite. It was brutal. It was cell drenching. Talking to him annoyed me. I had to let my guard down several times because he was being so clingy like he was attention-deprived. And I really did try to suck it up. I thought I could ride along. But the more I talked to him, the more I despised talking to him.

It started off normal. We talked about regular stuff. The first time he annoyed me was when I told him  I'd prep myself a meal so obviously I won't be replying to his messages, right? But I seriously felt like being watched over. I asked for a company not a body-guard. Few minutes later he asked me if I was done eating already. And I was like, "What, did you like wait for me?" But I was being nice so I rode along. And then I told him I was gonna take a nap. And then half an hour later, he messaged me if I was awake already. 

What is happening

REALLY

Can he just do his own stuff

I will message him again that's for sure

But maybe I actually have other stuff to deal with

I don't understand a minute by minute reply

I have a life so I expect him to have one too

But it literally felt like he was on his phone all day

Awaiting my reply

Wtf

My routine doesn't "jive" with that at all,

Especially my lifestyle

I will tell you where I'm going, just don't wait up for me

Okay fine wait for me but don't message me for live updates

We're not high-schoolers

I don't need your cheesy lines, I need your opinion on matters that matter

And then we get to the point when he was like "Where were you?"

And I'm like "I have classes na. I will get back to you later."

Later doesn't mean an hour later.

Later means once I'm settled down, at home, done with my day, and ready to talk about it to someone

That's how I imagine a relationship.

Live your life and I'll live mine.

We'll support each other but we won't compete with each others' time

UHM HELLO NASA KLASE PA AKO ANO BA

Can you wait until I text you?

It's like he didn't know

I told him my classes end at 9:30

And yet by 8pm he was already in my sleeves

SANDALI LANG NAMAN KUYA

Ugh

And then I told him I'm having dinner with friends

Then he was like "Until what time?"

Then minutes later "Are you home?"

We literally JUST ordered food

WAIT BRO

CHILL OUT

YOU'RE STRESSING ME OUT

And then I get home and I tell him bc I know he was waiting

But he jumps on me with this reply:  "Can we talk about this or that now?"

And I'm like "Hold your horses. I just got home. I need to change. Do my skincare. Prepare a drink. Etcetera."

But he was like "Can you do that later? Let's talk now."

Then I said, "No, I'm serious I need to do this."

And then this: "PLEASE"

Like fuck you

Get out

Get out of my life

That's it

You've reached the peak of my sanity

The last thing I want is to be told what to do

What are you, a fly on the wall?

And then he started to initiate green topics

Which I don't mind by the way

But he was all aggressive with it

It felt so unnatural

It didn't turn me on at all

In fact, it felt like he was trying too hard to be hot

I mean, he still pursued his green questions after I repeatedly told him he was making me uncomfortable.

So I went from being "nice" to being the usual me

No beating around the bush

I told him it wasn't working out between us

But he disregarded it and went on with questions along the line "So when was the last time you had sex"

SERIOUSLY

I already told you I was uncomfortable

I already told you I was annoyed

I already told you I was just being nice

I already told you it wasn't working out

Didn't you get it

But still Idk if MANHID ka because you still went on and was like "Let's video chat"

Then I said no

But then again you were like PLEASE

TANGINA MO

When I said no I said no

Never compel me to do anything

My mind rebels against that

So finally I told him this: "Unfriend me if you like, I won't mind."

Then he said "Likewise"