If life is an entity, it's probably laughing at me right now. Here I am, drenched in a million thoughts, and I hate that I'm the only one who can hear it.
I have learned a long time ago that expectations build shrines to destroy. Without expectations, there is nothing to destroy. Yet why am I so broken? I am my life's least favorite character, yet I still believed. I saw a glimmer of hope and I caught it. In my silly little head, I thought maybe this is payback. Maybe life is here to pay me back. Maybe this is my chapter. Maybe the antagonist gets to win at least once. Just. This. Time.
But who am I kidding? Winning sounds too good to be true. The crown never goes to the least favorite candidate.
Maybe I'm more disappointed at myself for the arguments I made against me, for hoping. I made an exception. I made a fool out of myself and that is what is destroying me. I cheered for me because people told me that I am my own biggest cheerleader. But I cheered for the wrong candidate. And I just lost. Life won. Like it always does. And it's probably laughing at me right now.
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