I really regret going to Law School

I really regret going to Law School. It’s like a chokehold that my father has over me. I never should have aspired higher. I should have settled. I should have been a bum kid instead. I would have been happier.

I always thought graduating from Law School would free me from my father’s grip over me. To my saddest realization, it never ends. His control over me will go on for eternity, perhaps even from beyond the grave. Maybe part of the reason why I refuse to pass the bar exam is because I knew, deep inside, that it’s going to give him another reason to pester me.

I never should have gone to law school. I should have been useless. I’d rather be useless to him than be drained of every ounce of energy I have left after fighting against my own monsters.

My own wish in this life is that I get to fight my OWN monsters. Dealing with other people‘s problems isn’t a bright future. I had enough dealing with his that I just give up. I’m tired.