Shit, how do I reply?

Two guys, two rejects.

And this is why I don't mingle. This is why I don't go out. Because I know I'm not interested. And I don't want to be stuck between "I don't want to hurt him" and "But I need to be honest with him".

Shit, how do I reply?

Situation No. 1: The Guy who (I know) purposely bought an extra concert ticket just so I'd go out with him. That message when he said he accidentally bought an extra ticket. What? How does one accidentally buy two tickets? And to say that he doesn't have anyone to go out with but me. Oh thanks for putting me on the I-feel-guilty platform. Not. So, how do I say I don't want to go? How do I say I'd rather skip a potentially good show and a once in a lifetime experience so I can get rid of him? That I'd choose to stay in bed, slouching my ass off, pondering what my future looks like, rather than have a good but awkward time with him?

Situation No. 2: The Guy who finally gained the guts to straight-face ask me out on a dinner. Or lunch? I don't know. His offer was to eat, not dinner specifically. But still, thumbs up bro for the courage. For weeks, or months actually, he's been a fly in my life. Buzzing constantly around my ear just so I know he exists. That occasional glimpses and messages he would send. To be honest, he's kind of cute, but the fact that he's a guy kind of puts him in the box under my bed labeled "no thanks" by default. And goodness I need to reply soon or else he'd be seen-zoned forever, and that would make me the mean girl. Well, an openly mean girl at least, since putting him in my box isn't less mean at all. A part of me wants to say yes too. Not because I might like him. But because I just want to try it out. You know... the typical date. But then again there's that road again, emphasizing the fact that I have no map no compass no destination. And it's enough for me to take a step back. What would going out on a date have anything to do with my future? Unless I'm ought to marry him, which is like beyond possible or acceptable even. Or am I just exaggerating as usual? Does it even bother me that I am actually thinking of saying yes to his offer when I know nothing of his background and stuff and I don't even know if he'll let me pay for the meal, compared to my long time (though weird) friend who's been there and has guaranteed a free ticket to a rock concert?

Wow. So tell me, how do I reply?