Maybe if I could, I would. Maybe I could, but I wouldnt... book a one-way ticket to Las Vegas. I would leave everything behind. I am sick and tired of keeping up with this life, that I want to start a new life somewhere. It wouldn't be anywhere. It will be in Las Vegas where my family lives. I probably would end up a check out lady but maybe I'll find happiness there. Or maybe I'll find misery, but it'll be a new one. Whatever my fate will be, it will definitely be different than my fate here. I'm not saying I've made all bad decisions in my life. There are quite a few remarkable ones, but not enough. I feel unsatisfied and I prefer to shut up about it because the last time I said it out loud, I ended up in lawschool.
I feel like I'm waiting for something, or someone, or both. I can't tell exactly. But I'm biding my time, seeking desperate attempts to slow time. Or maybe I'm waiting for a sign. I'll probably wait my entire life in this pacing. I have absolutely no clue how to go from here.
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