Confessions of a PT's GF: I am tired of this

I'm not used to being bossed around. For years its always been just me. My choice and my decision alone. I serve no master besides my own conscience. And my brain dictates my own strategy. I have my own way of handling things. For years I’ve mastered this.

You can’t come around and force me to do things. I can’t rewire my mood to accept your demands. If my brain didn’t want it, my brain doesn’t. It only gets worse if you push me. I might do it anyway, but it would be worthless and we’d both be wasting time.

You told me to tell you if I don’t like it. I did and yet you push on it anyway. Don’t expect me to be in my greatest mood, then complain why I’m such an ass and demand that I should have told you my thoughts. I did, but it’s you who didn’t listen. All you hear is yourself. What you want from me and what you expect from me. You didn’t bother asking if I want the same thing or expect the same. And then you boomerang it back to me as if it’s my fault. You see? We are going in circles. You ask why I’m in a bad mood and I tell you too late that you were forcing me to do it but when I tell you beforehand, you push on it the same and expect a happy ending. Where is the logic. What are we doing really. I am hating you more and more the more I spend time with you. You are like a kid thrown into the world with a single skill. Kid, you won’t survive alone. You’d be too naive. No wonder at your age, you are still struggling. No wonder you are insecure. No wonder people leave you. I’m always tempted to leave you.